It’s been too long

I remember when things were different

When I felt you with me all the time

You taught me about the person I was

You gave me the desire to change the lives of others

You were all I focused on

All I needed

Somewhere along the line we lost touch

I got distracted by insignificant happenings

I stopped talking to you

I stopped focusing on you

I let that feeling slip away

I let you go

But you never left

You stayed by my side through my avoidance

Now I realize the error of my ways

I want you back more than ever

I need that feeling again

I keep trying to feel for you but I think your pain is pushing me away

I accept it

Put it on my shoulders

Let me bear it

Through the tears, screaming, and pain

We will get through it

Your pain is my pain

Let me in so I can flourish once again

I can speak your words once again

I can love you once again

My love

The object that pumps life through my veins

My heart

Please let me in

Without you these words have no meaning

I’m not the man I should be unless I’m in touch with you

It’s been too long

But I’m ready if you are

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Humble

I refuse to believe that you have not been humbled

That you have lived your life without some pain and despair

Humility can come from many different instances and happenings

In that moment of declined dignity

When you are brought down from your perceived pedestal

You will have a choice

You can walk this new path cleared in the earth

Or you can climb up to the conceited path where you once stood

Humility stands as a reminder that we are human

To be humble is to be grounded

Do not interpret my words to mean throw away your confidence, your sense of self-worth, or your pride.

But do remember what it means to be humble

Remember what it means to make mistakes

To feel pain, sadness, and lowliness

While also remembering what you have going for you

Remember what everyday moments you should be thankful for

Remember how simple and yet complex life can be

And remember that it’s never as bad as it seems

Stay humble and grounded while feeling privileged and fortunate

Always be thankful

Are you ready? This is not political

Sometimes we forget about the delicacy of life

We are consumed by consumption

Enamored by lavishness

Distracted by technology

Always wanting more

We tend to lose sight of the beauty in the simplistic

Those who have lost the most

Are the most thankful for the least

They have learned to take nothing for granted

When death enters your life there are many different reactions

Grief on different magnitudes

Different ways of coping

Processing

But death can also be the corrective lens to see life

When knowledge of death’s imminence is brought to light

Time becomes focal

Interactions become vital

Breathing gains importance

As days come and go

As we age and grow

Remember nothing is infinite

Remember everything matters

Lose sleep for the sunrise

Chase after the sunset

Be awake and aware for beauty in its entirety

Tell someone you love them, mean it

Tell someone you care

Life’s too important for games

To delicate to take advantage of

Be genuine

Be kind

Live fully, freely, and happily

Twilight

As light crashes with darkness

Pastels splashed across the canvas of sky

Rays spreading to the unknown

A new day is coming

What beauty does light illuminate

What contrast does darkness illustrate

For one is not known without the other

Darkness will teach preservation

As the moon and stars twinkle amongst a sea of black

Eyes become adjusted to seek the light

For when brightness of civilization spreads upward

A cloud of illumination masks nature’s nightlights

Move towards barren lands

The abyss of darkness will be speckled with beautiful bright lights

Without darkness there is no measure of light

As I come from a place of darkness

I measured my light within it’s grasp

Its malleability allowed for the darkness to overcome

Light flaring from me

The tip of flames dancing

Fading into the night

Overcome by a black hole

Mine flickered trying to maintain strength

Removed from that darkness

Strengthening its potential by feeding the flames

Infusing more power

Finding other light to utilize

Don’t take advantage

Then the darkness owned will come forward

Use any darkness to contrast the light

Realizing it’s true nature

Not to be manipulated

To harness, cherish, and share

True full illumination

As rays reach far

Touching peers

Light becomes dominant

Be with more suns

Past twilight

Pumping Notes through My Veins

You are so dynamic, so diverse, and yet so universal

As I scream to you at the top of my lungs

My voice cracking trying to reach your ascent

I may not have a perfect voice but I don’t care

I get lost within you

You speak to me in a way nothing else can

I can take you with me on the road with the windows down and the world to hear

My friends and I love you unconditionally

We continue to discover more about you

More things we fall for

You have the perfect words for every situation

You say them in a way I only wish I could think of

You continue to change and adapt

I love the old you

And I love the new you

You speak for my heart and soul

Come with me where ever I go and let me sing to you

Let me listen in silence as I think about life

You are my escape and my drug

And when my time here is done

I know my life will have been filled with you

And I will live on through you

You instill everlasting memories

Which are recalled upon your first chords

You bring about tears

You by yourself move the hearts of many

You are the universal language of love, pain, happiness, despair

Of all emotions, thoughts, and feelings

You bring people from all walks of life together

In admiration of you

Each note pumps from my speakers and headphones to my eardrums

And my heart follows your beat

I feel whole

To music,

Love Ben